sigh, gonna leave home ad, then going back UTP, starting another semester. this time around, i might not be able to come back for one year and a half, or even more due to coming 8 months internship. this time is the longest holiday i have at home in three years, now that i'm leaving, a lot feelings come by.
gonna miss home badly, although during the holidays like nothing to do, when leaving that time still not willing to leave. somemore this time gonna leave for such a long time.haha...well, i guess that's part of the growing process.
one semester has passed, result also announced. thank God i did quite fine, in fact surprisingly well, for last semester, really praise God for all His blessings. considering the little and last minute effort i put in for my studies, i thank God for the result. His faithfulness lasts for generations.
last semester i was involved in plenty of extra co-cu stuffs, the clubs, the events and also the church serving. it was hectic and there's once that i felt so dried up that i wanted to give up. But God brought me through and i really thank God for His refuge and strength that i was able to make it through. i guess the greatest lesson i learnt through last semester was to rely on God completely. with Him, there's nothing impossible.
i remember i prayed for the SPE conference, and God answered our prayers. the conference received enormous response. then i prayed for my studies, He answered as well that i was able to cope last-minutely(hehe...)and also at the same time was able to help others in some of the subjects. really thank God for His guidance and wisdom.
a lot of things happened last semester, bad things, good things, and i thank God for them all. i learned a lot, frankly speaking. i really learned. i saw how childish i was, how ignorant, how irrational and how judgmental i can be, how rush i can be and also how many mistakes i can commit without realizing it. it's frustrating of course to see how "flawful" we are, but i always encourage myself, "the more mistakes you find in yourself, the more you have grown up. and most of all, God is always there to watch you" . it works, maybe sometimes not instantly, but in the end i was able to stand up again after falling down. of course, i'm trying to improve as well...by God's grace, i can be a better man. :P
thank God for friends also. they encourage me a lot. without them, my life can be super dull. of course i do have quarrels and misunderstandings with them, but through all these our friendships grow(i hope...hehe). yea, i guess there are still plenty for me to learn in socializing, especially in defining clear boundaries or expectations with friends, the close ones per say. no one is perfect i have to say, as long as we are willing to learn, i guess it's not that bad after all.
alright, i think i talked too much. gonna leave ad! man...dun think can sleep tonight. sigh. gonna miss this place badly.
*pardon me for the poor english grammar and sentences structure, wrote this in a rush,hehe...*
1 comment:
how blessed we r actually..and we must be thankful for all good and bad that comes along..it builds up our character along the way.. good to hv this blog as u go along.. when in later years, it will become a memoir for yr kids and yr generations.. :)
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